May Pang

I don't have a relationship with Yoko. I've tried contacting her many times after John had died. She wouldn't return any of my phone calls.

Sometimes it would feel permanent, but he could be jerked back into Yoko's mind games very easily. Also, as our relationship began so strangely I suppose it would have had to end just as strange.

John smoked his French Gauloises and drank lots of strong coffee.

When you hear something that's not correct, it really starts to irk someone.

I wanted to be cleared up about that Lost Weekend. I've heard enough of the myth. It was frustrating, but I let it go.

When I was with John it took me awhile to say, 'I'm in love with him.' I loved him as a person because I'd known him for three years. But as the person I'm living with who became my lover, it was really a slow move.

A friend of ours said, 'You think you're really going to have that much hair at 65?' I mean, John got insulted by that.

I think I have a right to write about John.

John was a very talented person who gave the world a lot of happiness through his music.

One day, we were going to the studio for John's recording session, and as we were leaving to get to the studio, in the elevator, all of a sudden, John leaned over and gave me a kiss. He said, 'I've been waiting to do this all day.' I said, 'What are you talking about?' What happened was, he'd liked me.

I've been airbrushed out, as it were. You can imagine my frustration at being erased from history deliberately. I really don't know how Yoko can sleep at night knowing what she's done. But I can tell you I sleep very peacefully.

History is one thing that nobody can take away. No matter what anybody says or whose side you're on.

I understand it when the fans are looking at me. The Beatles, and John in particular, are their musical idols. You can't touch John, but you want to know more about him, and you want to know from a person who was close to him.

I haven't spoken to Yoko since the mid-'70s.

If anybody had told me I was going to live outside of New York City, I would have thought they were out of their minds.

I'm a big gadget queen.

Goldfish in Chinese restaurants are there to draw in the gold, the money.

John just didn't understand his being the focus of all this attention.

I just get tired of the same rehashing of lies and myths.

I had access to John like very few people had had.

Most people have come to know the time that John Lennon and I spent together as The Lost Weekend. I am always surprised by how many people are under the impression that our time together lasted only a single weekend.

John would drink, too, but he would stop. After a while, John would say, 'I've had enough, I don't want to be in the papers.'

A friend of mine kept saying, 'You tell all these stories about John, and when you do, you say, 'Wait a minute, I have a photo to go along with that!' How come we never see these photos in a book?' So, I thought maybe it's time to put them out. It would let people see John in that world, through my eyes.

I grew up with feng shui, but I never saw any jewelry that would give me the energy I needed and also looked good.

I was born to Chinese immigrant parents, who came from Taiyuan.